Thursday, July 17, 2008

Andy and the Faceless Human

I just got back from work and surprised seeing Andy choking the bishop on my bed. He invited me to swim the waters of desire with him, to play In and Out. With his youthful smile, I cannot help but jump and join his trip to cloud nine for my cheeks, both superior and inferior, need their milky emulsion.

The scene has transformed into Edward and Jacob sword-fighting for Bella. Harsh, bombastic and sexy. But all of a sudden, I felt exhaustion. I realized this is not what I am looking for. I been through this and thought that my appreciation didn't focus on the painting itself but on the painter instead. Sick and tired, I pushed Andy away and he fell, descended back deep into his dirty porn pit.

This when I noticed that my blue comforter has turned into crystal-clear waters; my mattress into powdery white sand. I was sitting there alone. I felt the ecstatic emotions Richard had, the moment he found The Beach. And that's without Francoise, Sal or Daffy. I was alone.

Sometimes I want to be by myself. What a relief to be away from the Raul Gonzales' and the Willie Revillames of the world. Alone and enjoying the sights and sounds of the beach. I thought this is the best day to die. Very peaceful. The best day to surrender.

But then, I saw a shadow not mine on my right. I turned and looked back. There he was standing like an angel. A faceless angel. "Who are you?" I asked. "I am your Jericho, your Lawrence, your Jojo. I am also your Mack, your Hassan, your Piolo. I am sorry to let you wait for too long. It is all because I had a hard time finding you".

"Now get up, and lets start the walk,... our walk together" he replied. "How can i trust you?" I asked. "Lets just say I am your fate and you are my destiny. We were born to walk together" he said. "But you are faceless!" I replied. "Reveal yourself to me!". "Okay!" was the only word that came out of his mouth.

Then there was light.......

Mama O has entered the room. "Ano ang ginagawa mo 'day?"

(That was me... in my bedroom of fantasy. Lecheng Mama O yan!)

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