Tandang Sora

Ayoko kong tumanda! Gosh.... nafe-feel ko na ngayon ang phobia ng katandaan. Remember ko ang post ni Megan about this issue. Ngayon lang ako tinamaan.

Biglang napag-isip ako at 34. Medyo nabawasan na ang Kuya-Ate terms of respect ko. Ako na ngayon ang tinatawag na Kuya. Almost everyday, naririrnig ko toh. As in ngayon ko lang talaga na notice toh.

Sa work, akala ko ka-age ko pa ang mga ka-churva ko, hindi na pala. Kuya here and Kuya there na ang heard ko from them. Biglang terrified ang bakla. Tinaasan ang 401K retirement plan kaagad, binawasan ang pagyoyosi, uminon ng green tea, at nag-moisturize! Ching!

I asked Mama O kung feel nya rin na tumanda sya. Ang bruha! Hindi raw. Ngayon nya nga lang raw talaga na feel ang Life. I dunno what he meant by that. Pls expand nga Mama O... Ang sagot: Mas interesting raw ang Sex Life nya ngayon compared nung 20's sya. Gandara ang Lola!

The thought of getting old as a gay man... kakainis. Ekra once said that its ok for a gay man to grow old... as long as he has friends around him. Friends who really care ha. Kelly, having two kids, (i bet) has nothing to worry about. Blood is thicker that water kung baga. I thought of my nephews and nieces... but i dont expect too much from them. They have their own lives to live too.

All I can say is.... with friends or no friends; with kids or no kids; with BF or none, the thought of reaching old age is scary and sad di ba? Watch nyo ang video ng mga thundercats below. Nalungkot ako. Pambihira!

Song of the Week: Hoppipolla from my fave, Sigur Ros.


Or maybe at this age of 34, getting old like Mary Walter is scary. As we age, our thoughts develop naman. Our needs change. Remember Maslow's? As long as we reach self-actualization, we'll be fine. I remember when I was in High School, I thought of age 30's as old... pero ngayon, isip-isip ko, hindi naman pala. I have much to achieve pa... too much to do... I still have plenty of time. Vavoooo!