Phil, Ali and Sam

Prologue:

I was born for Phil. But today, I said goodbye to him. Phil whom Ive loved so much. And will still love forever. Despite of not taking care of me very well as a partner, my heart will always belong to him. I left Phil a long time ago. We were pre-destined to be separated. But i did always do my best to see him once in a while as I can. It was a long distance love affair. Every time I am with him, even for just a short time, I feel the happiest.

Part 1: Phil

Phil is poor. Not blessed enough like the others. But it was his own fault for not doing his best. A guy with no goals. His mind corrupted. It was all "Bahala na!" He didnt provide me safety and comfort. I didnt even feel his Love for me. I figured I have no future with Phil, thus decided to leave him and seek for others. It hurts leaving him but I have no choice. I need to secure a better future for myself.

Part 2: Ali

My quest brought me to Ali. He provided me all of what i needed at that time: Freedom from disarray. My family was delighted to have him in my life. He's super rich, that's why. Though my heart doesn't belong to him, the sex were great. As we go along, I learnt how to accept Ali's Islamic culture but his family didnt embrace me. They saw me as just another girl from a third-world country, like their maid or their saleslady. I still chose to stick with him for all that, but left him eventually upon knowing his secret: his heart belongs to the Blondes. I was nothing for him but a servant, sex included. We lasted 4 and a half years.

Part 3: Sam

Not that long after Ali, I met Sam. For the past 8 years of my life, Sam has been good to me, offering me ease and opulence. He embraced me as who I am and even encouraged me to speak out and be independent. He taught me how to value myself. Motivated me to follow my dreams and gave me the opportunity to achieve them. He gave me everything what Phil and Ali cannot give. He is the whole shebang!

Sam's quite popular, good-looking and affluent, whom every family wants for their daughters. My friends envied me for having him. His family treated me as their own. Sam is my honey. The fantastic years we have together was my basis for good chances. He is the total package. Comfort, acceptance, and attachment to each other. That being so, 4 months ago, I asked his hand for Marriage. With no hiccups, he accepted my proposal.

Today, I was married to Sam. At the ceremony, mixed emotions ignited. I was happy to have him forever but there was something that pains me deep inside. I thought of Phil. My heart is still with my beloved Phil but my conviction, my allegiance is now with Sam. But when the priest said "you can now kiss the bride", Sam kissed me with all of his heart. He embraced me. He gave me importance. I never felt that love before. It was real.

Epilogue:

Tonight, I'm writing this while Sam is sleeping. I promised to love him like the way i loved Phil. And to Phil, you will always be in my heart. No matter what. Even though, you dont give back the love I have for you, Ill keep on coming back. And the good thing is, Sam doesn't mind and even encourages me to do so.