Gay Loom

18The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of men who suppress the truth by their wickedness, 19since what may be known about God is plain to them, because God has made it plain to them. 20For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities— his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.

21For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. 22Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools 23and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like mortal man and birds and animals and reptiles.

24Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. 25They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator—who is forever praised. Amen.

26Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for unnatural ones. 27In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their perversion.

-Romans 1: 18-27 (NIV)

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As much as possible sana, I dont want to tackle religion versus homosexuality sa blog na to. Pero ng nabasa ko to kanina, napa-sad ako bigla.

I am a Born-Again Christian since HS. I believe that the Bible is the Word of God. But for the past years, I havent been to a Fellowship and I havent touched my Bible for a long time. Call me a back-slider. That is maybe who I am now. Even though I still talk(pray) to God from time to time.

I remember, I struggled a lot when I was still active sa Church, for I am a homosexual. (I attended Victory, the one where Piolo Pascual is a brother now). I was told that being a homosexual is not a sin, but the homosexual acts are. I used to ask God, why? And I didnt get any clear answer from Him. Vague pa rin para sa akin. Or am I just acting deaf?

It's very hard, even now. I am still struggling. I really dont know what to do. I cried after reading the above passages. I tried to listen to Him, but I cannot hear anything. Maybe am doomed to suffer hell. Not because I am homosexual, but because I fall in love with other men. And I want to practice that love with them.